Helping mommy fold the laundry...
Mommy's underwear makes a good necklace...
Too cute...
I found daddy's mint chocolate mocha from Starbucks...
Cheese!!!!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Mack Update
I haven't posted pics of my adorable little girl in a while so I thought I would show you all how much she's grown.
Helping mommy fold the laundry...
Mommy's underwear makes a good necklace...
Too cute...
I found daddy's mint chocolate mocha from Starbucks...
Cheese!!!!
Helping mommy fold the laundry...
Mommy's underwear makes a good necklace...
Too cute...
I found daddy's mint chocolate mocha from Starbucks...
Cheese!!!!
A new day for a new endeavor...
This week I have embarked on a new endeavor... Chris and i have been praying and trying to figure out how we can help supplement our income while I am in school this semester and my class schedule will not allow me time to work during the day. Not wanting to have to get a second job which would consume ALL of my evenings and weekends making minimum wage, I think I have found a way to do something I will enjoy while helping make ends meet.
I have become a Pampered Chef consultant, after much thinking and praying, I have decided on giving it a shot. I feel like I could be somewhat successful at it seeing as how it doesn't take much to prove to people how awesome the products are and I have more of an "outgoing" personality.
Whether or not I have "what it takes" for it we'll see I guess. I am definitely looking forward to being able to share their amazing products which I LOVE with the people around me as well as restocking my cabinets with them :)
So for any of you die-hard cooks or those of you who spend as little time in the kitchen as you can, pampered chef makes cooking easy and enjoyable.
Give me a hollar if you're interested in their products or booking a party and we'll work something out!
I have become a Pampered Chef consultant, after much thinking and praying, I have decided on giving it a shot. I feel like I could be somewhat successful at it seeing as how it doesn't take much to prove to people how awesome the products are and I have more of an "outgoing" personality.
Whether or not I have "what it takes" for it we'll see I guess. I am definitely looking forward to being able to share their amazing products which I LOVE with the people around me as well as restocking my cabinets with them :)
So for any of you die-hard cooks or those of you who spend as little time in the kitchen as you can, pampered chef makes cooking easy and enjoyable.
Give me a hollar if you're interested in their products or booking a party and we'll work something out!
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Motherhood
This morning I put Mack in her highchair for her breakfast of cheerios, banana and milk and walked into the kitchen to get myself something to eat. Seeing as how I had just given Mack the last of the milk, I decided a poptart it was. I walked back into the living room and sat down on the couch and began checking my email.
From over on the other side of the room I hear this: " Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy.... down, DOWN!"
I walked over and saw that she had finished most of her breakfast and walked back into the kitchen, grabbed a rag and proceeded to wipe her down and get her down for the highchair.
I walked back into the kitchen with the rag and her tray and proceeded to clean it off. I walk back into the living room to see my daughter SHOVELING MY POPTART! into her mouth as fast as her little fingers would move. I shouted "HEY!, Thats mommy's!" At this she jumped about a foot in the air and took of in a run across the living room, poptart in hand. I had to chase her around and under the table to get it back and by the time I did, what was left after she devoured it was smashed and mutilated.
I found myself laughing so hard I couldn't discipline her cherry filling covered face.
God has a way of giving you what you need just when you need it... An encouraging word, a friendly hug, or in this case, a good laugh... Even if you have to sacrifice a poptart in the process.
The past month has been a process of change and acceptance for me. Learning how to cope and accept the loss of my unborn child and allowing God to begin the healing process in my life. I'm not going to lie and say it's been easy and I've been able to move on, but I have accepted it and am placing it in God's hands hat He knows what is best for me and my family. I feel that I am at peace with what has happened and pray that God will guide me in the path i am to take now. I thank him everyday for what he has given me, especially for my beautiful little poptart stealing daughter.
Thanks to all who have kept us in their prayers, it has been a great help to know that we are supported by so many people.
From over on the other side of the room I hear this: " Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy.... down, DOWN!"
I walked over and saw that she had finished most of her breakfast and walked back into the kitchen, grabbed a rag and proceeded to wipe her down and get her down for the highchair.
I walked back into the kitchen with the rag and her tray and proceeded to clean it off. I walk back into the living room to see my daughter SHOVELING MY POPTART! into her mouth as fast as her little fingers would move. I shouted "HEY!, Thats mommy's!" At this she jumped about a foot in the air and took of in a run across the living room, poptart in hand. I had to chase her around and under the table to get it back and by the time I did, what was left after she devoured it was smashed and mutilated.
I found myself laughing so hard I couldn't discipline her cherry filling covered face.
God has a way of giving you what you need just when you need it... An encouraging word, a friendly hug, or in this case, a good laugh... Even if you have to sacrifice a poptart in the process.
The past month has been a process of change and acceptance for me. Learning how to cope and accept the loss of my unborn child and allowing God to begin the healing process in my life. I'm not going to lie and say it's been easy and I've been able to move on, but I have accepted it and am placing it in God's hands hat He knows what is best for me and my family. I feel that I am at peace with what has happened and pray that God will guide me in the path i am to take now. I thank him everyday for what he has given me, especially for my beautiful little poptart stealing daughter.
Thanks to all who have kept us in their prayers, it has been a great help to know that we are supported by so many people.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Update... (Warning: May be best for female eyes only due to some graphic descriptions)
Well, since my last post a lot has happened.
I have had to tell the story over and over so to save myself from having to repeat it yet again, I'm going to blog it here for all who are wanting to know the details.
*Warning: some details may be graphic, and men may feel uncomfortable with some of the female details*
I began spotting and having mild cramping Wednesday night which turned to more intense pain Thursday night.
I returned to the Dr Friday morning to hear the results of my blood tests. He informed me that my hormone levels were dropping drastically as he had figured they would be. This confirmed that my pregnancy was ending and informed me I should be expecting to have an actual miscarriage with in the next week. He told me what I should expect to happen (spotting which would change to heavy bleeding, as well as cramping and contraction-like pain) He said the major "gushing" bleeding (tmi, sorry) should only last an hour or two and then I would experience something like a "normal period". He also told me what should not happen (needing more than 2 pads in an hour, fever over 101 and frequent vomiting) and to contact the office if i experienced any of these symptoms.
Well, that evening his prediction held true and I began experiencing the tell-tale signs of miscarriage. I was experiencing bleeding similar to a period and I was hoping the worst would soon be over. I went to bed hoping to be able to get some sleep through the cramping. around 1:30 -2 am I was awakened by intense abdominal pain. I went into the bathroom and realized my bleeding had increased drastically. While sitting on the toilet I felt a "gush". I don't want to be too graphic but lets say it was a lot more than what the Dr had referred to as "normal". I went back to bed thinking it would pass shortly as he said, but needed to go back to the bathroom about 15 minutes later to prevent a" mess".
It continued on like that until around 4:30 when I barely made it back to the bedroom before passing out. I was awakened by Christopher shaking me vigorously. I asked him to help me back to the restroom again feeling the need as I was "leaking" onto my pajamas. After practically carrying me into the restroom, I passed out onto the floor next to the toilet. At this point Christopher decided it was time to go the ER. I told him I didn't want to go but he refused to let me talk him out of it, so we informed TJ where we were going and asked him to listen for Mackenzie and keep an eye on her.
After getting the ER and through triage, an ER Dr preformed an exam and informed me he would be contacting my OB about doing a D&C because of my extreme blood loss. This is what I was afraid of. I had a fear of having this procedure done because of the side affects I have heard it can cause, including the inability have a healthy pregnancy.
Once I was admitted and moved to the OB unit (where every woman who is miscarrying wants to be, seeing all the beautiful, healthy newborns) We waited for my OB to come and talk to me.
He informed me he felt a D&C was necessary due to my bleeding being uncontrolled and still continuing at a rapid rate. I inquired about my concerns about wanting more children and the damage this procedure might cause. He calmed my nerves to an extent saying he had preformed this for many miscarriages and he had not had a patient have those kinds of complications due to the surgery.
Still feeling uneasy about the surgery as well as experiencing feelings of loss, in addition to the new information that I would be receiving a spinal block for the procedure ( I'm terrified of needles, especially in my back) needless to say I was a crying, sobbing mess on my way to the ER. The nurse transporting me did his best to calm me on the way and even began witnessing to me on our way to the elevator. ( God has a way of letting you know He's there)
The procedure went fine and I was able to go home around 7 pm, not in any real pain, besides my lower back where I received the spinal block. I am now beginning the process of emotional healing and acceptance of my loss and pray for God's hand upon me and my family.
Thank you to all who have prayed and are praying for me and my family through this time, it is greatly appreciated.
I have had to tell the story over and over so to save myself from having to repeat it yet again, I'm going to blog it here for all who are wanting to know the details.
*Warning: some details may be graphic, and men may feel uncomfortable with some of the female details*
I began spotting and having mild cramping Wednesday night which turned to more intense pain Thursday night.
I returned to the Dr Friday morning to hear the results of my blood tests. He informed me that my hormone levels were dropping drastically as he had figured they would be. This confirmed that my pregnancy was ending and informed me I should be expecting to have an actual miscarriage with in the next week. He told me what I should expect to happen (spotting which would change to heavy bleeding, as well as cramping and contraction-like pain) He said the major "gushing" bleeding (tmi, sorry) should only last an hour or two and then I would experience something like a "normal period". He also told me what should not happen (needing more than 2 pads in an hour, fever over 101 and frequent vomiting) and to contact the office if i experienced any of these symptoms.
Well, that evening his prediction held true and I began experiencing the tell-tale signs of miscarriage. I was experiencing bleeding similar to a period and I was hoping the worst would soon be over. I went to bed hoping to be able to get some sleep through the cramping. around 1:30 -2 am I was awakened by intense abdominal pain. I went into the bathroom and realized my bleeding had increased drastically. While sitting on the toilet I felt a "gush". I don't want to be too graphic but lets say it was a lot more than what the Dr had referred to as "normal". I went back to bed thinking it would pass shortly as he said, but needed to go back to the bathroom about 15 minutes later to prevent a" mess".
It continued on like that until around 4:30 when I barely made it back to the bedroom before passing out. I was awakened by Christopher shaking me vigorously. I asked him to help me back to the restroom again feeling the need as I was "leaking" onto my pajamas. After practically carrying me into the restroom, I passed out onto the floor next to the toilet. At this point Christopher decided it was time to go the ER. I told him I didn't want to go but he refused to let me talk him out of it, so we informed TJ where we were going and asked him to listen for Mackenzie and keep an eye on her.
After getting the ER and through triage, an ER Dr preformed an exam and informed me he would be contacting my OB about doing a D&C because of my extreme blood loss. This is what I was afraid of. I had a fear of having this procedure done because of the side affects I have heard it can cause, including the inability have a healthy pregnancy.
Once I was admitted and moved to the OB unit (where every woman who is miscarrying wants to be, seeing all the beautiful, healthy newborns) We waited for my OB to come and talk to me.
He informed me he felt a D&C was necessary due to my bleeding being uncontrolled and still continuing at a rapid rate. I inquired about my concerns about wanting more children and the damage this procedure might cause. He calmed my nerves to an extent saying he had preformed this for many miscarriages and he had not had a patient have those kinds of complications due to the surgery.
Still feeling uneasy about the surgery as well as experiencing feelings of loss, in addition to the new information that I would be receiving a spinal block for the procedure ( I'm terrified of needles, especially in my back) needless to say I was a crying, sobbing mess on my way to the ER. The nurse transporting me did his best to calm me on the way and even began witnessing to me on our way to the elevator. ( God has a way of letting you know He's there)
The procedure went fine and I was able to go home around 7 pm, not in any real pain, besides my lower back where I received the spinal block. I am now beginning the process of emotional healing and acceptance of my loss and pray for God's hand upon me and my family.
Thank you to all who have prayed and are praying for me and my family through this time, it is greatly appreciated.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Life's Disappointments....
I went to the doctor this morning for my 12 week check. After several minutes of the doctor searching for the heartbeat and measuring the size of my uterus, he said he'd like to an ultrasound. We walked down to the ultrasound room where I laid terrified of hearing the words I knew were coming. "The fetus has no heartbeat".
Based upon the measurements of my uterus and the development presented in the ultrasound, the baby stopped developing somewhere around 7 weeks but the placenta and sac continued to grow, hence the reason I haven't had bleeding or signs of a miscarriage.
I have blood tests Thursday and another appt on Friday, to discuss where to go from here...
I don't understand why these things happen or how exactly to deal with it. I'm praying for strength and would appreciate your prayers for me and my family through this time.
Based upon the measurements of my uterus and the development presented in the ultrasound, the baby stopped developing somewhere around 7 weeks but the placenta and sac continued to grow, hence the reason I haven't had bleeding or signs of a miscarriage.
I have blood tests Thursday and another appt on Friday, to discuss where to go from here...
I don't understand why these things happen or how exactly to deal with it. I'm praying for strength and would appreciate your prayers for me and my family through this time.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
I'm a winner!!!
So i won a contest on Marcia's blog and she wrote a poem about me... How cool is that??
I thought I would share it with you all.
"Busy Little Lizzy"
Busy Little Lizzy
Is usually all in a tizzy
Caring for big, handsome Chris
And sweet little Baby Mack.
Busy Little Lizzy
Can make herself totally dizzy
Making sure nothing's amiss,
And hurrying" there" and back.
Busy Little Lizzy
Wonders, "Who is she or who is he?"
Teaches Mack how to be a big sis,
Plans on getting her figure back.
Busy Little Lizzy
Soon a teacher all bubbly and fizzy
Wants to give all the children a kiss
Replacing the love they lack.
You Rock Marcia!!!
I thought I would share it with you all.
"Busy Little Lizzy"
Busy Little Lizzy
Is usually all in a tizzy
Caring for big, handsome Chris
And sweet little Baby Mack.
Busy Little Lizzy
Can make herself totally dizzy
Making sure nothing's amiss,
And hurrying" there" and back.
Busy Little Lizzy
Wonders, "Who is she or who is he?"
Teaches Mack how to be a big sis,
Plans on getting her figure back.
Busy Little Lizzy
Soon a teacher all bubbly and fizzy
Wants to give all the children a kiss
Replacing the love they lack.
You Rock Marcia!!!
For Uncle Ryan
Because she misses you sooo much, Mackenzie wanted me to post this just for you. :) She loves looking at pictures of you and Steph.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
More Mack - The Little Laugher
Ok I know it's a little silly, but we thought this was so funny. Evidently, Daddy biting Mommy's finger is hilarious.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Baby #2...
Well it's official... Baby # 2 is on the way. I'm due sometime in January, we'll know for sure the precise due date next friday after I go to the OB. I'm learning to accept that this is in God's hands and His timing is perfect... It wasn't planned, but we are excited because it is a baby from God and every baby is a precious gift.
Mackenzie does very well with other babies and I'm sure she will be an awesome big sister. She loves to feed her baby dolls and share her toys with others.
Christopher is absolutely ecstatic about the news and couldn't contain the excitement, he had to tell everyone we knew the day we found out. I on the other hand, needed a sometime to let it sink in.
I'm feeling well so far, no morning sickness to speak of yet and hopefully that's how it will stay.
Ok, well thats all I have to say for now... Just wanted to keep every one up to date...
Mackenzie does very well with other babies and I'm sure she will be an awesome big sister. She loves to feed her baby dolls and share her toys with others.
Christopher is absolutely ecstatic about the news and couldn't contain the excitement, he had to tell everyone we knew the day we found out. I on the other hand, needed a sometime to let it sink in.
I'm feeling well so far, no morning sickness to speak of yet and hopefully that's how it will stay.
Ok, well thats all I have to say for now... Just wanted to keep every one up to date...
Monday, May 19, 2008
Ok, I debated because I use to fill these things out religiously and I'm trying to break myself of this habit, but since it's from Marcia, I'll do it. :)
YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD !!! Not as easy as you might think! Copy, change the answers to suit you and post it on your blog. You just might find it hard to only use one word answers.
1. Where is your cell phone? Couch
2. Your significant other? Christopher
3. Your hair? Dirty
4. Your mother? Patty
5. Your father? Tim
6. Your favorite thing? Hugs
7. Your dream last night? Sad
8. Your favorite drink? Milk
9. Your dream/goal? Teacher
10. The room you're in? Living
11. Your hobby? Crochet
12. Your fear? Death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Omaha
14. Where were you last night? Pizza
15. What you're not? Skinny
16. Muffins? Sure
17. One of your wish list items? Health
18. Where you grew up? Indiana
19. The last thing you did? Fed
20. What are you wearing? Sweats
21. Your TV? Off
22. Your pets? Lou
23. Your computer? Mac
24. Your life? Busy
25. Your mood? Exhausted
26. Missing someone? Dad
27. Your car? Dying
28. Something you're not wearing? socks
29. Favorite store? Target
30. Your summer? Great!
31. Like someone? Yes
32. Your favorite color? Blue
33. When is the last time you laughed? tonight
34. Last time you cried? yesterday
35. Who will post this? Erica?
YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD !!! Not as easy as you might think! Copy, change the answers to suit you and post it on your blog. You just might find it hard to only use one word answers.
1. Where is your cell phone? Couch
2. Your significant other? Christopher
3. Your hair? Dirty
4. Your mother? Patty
5. Your father? Tim
6. Your favorite thing? Hugs
7. Your dream last night? Sad
8. Your favorite drink? Milk
9. Your dream/goal? Teacher
10. The room you're in? Living
11. Your hobby? Crochet
12. Your fear? Death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Omaha
14. Where were you last night? Pizza
15. What you're not? Skinny
16. Muffins? Sure
17. One of your wish list items? Health
18. Where you grew up? Indiana
19. The last thing you did? Fed
20. What are you wearing? Sweats
21. Your TV? Off
22. Your pets? Lou
23. Your computer? Mac
24. Your life? Busy
25. Your mood? Exhausted
26. Missing someone? Dad
27. Your car? Dying
28. Something you're not wearing? socks
29. Favorite store? Target
30. Your summer? Great!
31. Like someone? Yes
32. Your favorite color? Blue
33. When is the last time you laughed? tonight
34. Last time you cried? yesterday
35. Who will post this? Erica?
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Dancin' queen
So Mack's new favorite past time is dancing. This is her dancing to "Fighter", pausing only to eat her cheerios. :)
Frustration
Ok I know I have been posting a lot about Mack recently and have not posted anything regarding me in a while. Truthfully, I'm stressed and frustrated beyond belief as this semester is coming to a close. I have a week and a half left of class and then finals and have now entered "crunch time". I will be teaching my own lesson plan to a 3rd grade class a week from today and am stressed about whether all of the work I have put in, is going to pay off and will I actually teach them new information in an exciting way or if I will leave them bored and confused. I find myself stressing over whether I have chosen the right "career" for myself. If I am meant to be a teacher, would I be this worried about the outcome of one lesson? Are teachers naturally calm and feel in their element when preparing to teach or do they feel the anxiety I've been feeling?
In addition to the stress of the semester ending, I am dealing with the fact that though I have been in college 4 years already, and am a senior by credits, I will be school for 2 more years to come still finishing my bachelors degree. I see all of my friends who have graduated and gone on to pursue their careers already, and here I am still sitting in the classroom and doing homework. Will it ever end?? I'm getting to the point now when someone asks me what I do, I cringe as I respond "I'm a full-time college student", to which they typically reply "oh, getting your masters?" and I must reply, "no, my bachelors". I then wait for the awkwardness to pass as we stand there not really knowing what to say next. I typically end the conversation saying "It took me a couple years to figure out what I wanted to do with my life".
What I find interesting is that if I were a woman in my late 30's going back to college for the first time, people would look at me with admiration for deciding to pursue an education as an adult and overcoming so many obstacles. But since I am 23 and have been in school for 4 years, I should have graduated by now and look as though I don't apply myself, never-minding the fact that I am a wife and a mother who works 10-15 hours a week and is still able to maintain a 3.4 GPA (a 3.9 in my core education classes).
In addition to the stress of the semester ending, I am dealing with the fact that though I have been in college 4 years already, and am a senior by credits, I will be school for 2 more years to come still finishing my bachelors degree. I see all of my friends who have graduated and gone on to pursue their careers already, and here I am still sitting in the classroom and doing homework. Will it ever end?? I'm getting to the point now when someone asks me what I do, I cringe as I respond "I'm a full-time college student", to which they typically reply "oh, getting your masters?" and I must reply, "no, my bachelors". I then wait for the awkwardness to pass as we stand there not really knowing what to say next. I typically end the conversation saying "It took me a couple years to figure out what I wanted to do with my life".
What I find interesting is that if I were a woman in my late 30's going back to college for the first time, people would look at me with admiration for deciding to pursue an education as an adult and overcoming so many obstacles. But since I am 23 and have been in school for 4 years, I should have graduated by now and look as though I don't apply myself, never-minding the fact that I am a wife and a mother who works 10-15 hours a week and is still able to maintain a 3.4 GPA (a 3.9 in my core education classes).
Monday, April 14, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Stinky Feet
This video is just an example of our everyday lives. We'll do anything to get Mack to laugh...
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Growing up too fast...
I realized yesterday that Mack is going to be 1 year old in 3 weeks.... Where has the time gone? I can barely believe that we are already to this point. In the last week she has started crawling all over, got her first tooth and discovered she is capable of getting into soooo many things in the living room.
This a video I took of her this morning, after she discovered how to use her new toy.
This a video I took of her this morning, after she discovered how to use her new toy.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Florida Pictures 12/07-1/08
I realized I never posted pictures from our vacation to Florida after Christmas. Here are some from the beach, I'll post more later.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Living
Wow, it's been 2 months again since my last post. Life has just been so crazy lately.
Mackenzie was in the hospital with RSV back several weeks ago. She was having trouble moving air and had a terrible cough. She was released 3 days later and went home on breathing treatments 3 times a day. She's doing great now, happy and squealing as usual.
She still isn't crawling, although she has figured out how to scoot backwards and walk while pushing her car. She's so funny.
School is going well, although I've gotten behind on a few projects between the time I lost while Mackenzie was sick and Christopher having the flu. Still trying to balance the dual roles of student and mother/wife.
Well thats all I have for now, just thought I'd give a little update on our lives.
Mackenzie was in the hospital with RSV back several weeks ago. She was having trouble moving air and had a terrible cough. She was released 3 days later and went home on breathing treatments 3 times a day. She's doing great now, happy and squealing as usual.
She still isn't crawling, although she has figured out how to scoot backwards and walk while pushing her car. She's so funny.
School is going well, although I've gotten behind on a few projects between the time I lost while Mackenzie was sick and Christopher having the flu. Still trying to balance the dual roles of student and mother/wife.
Well thats all I have for now, just thought I'd give a little update on our lives.
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