So Mack's new favorite past time is dancing. This is her dancing to "Fighter", pausing only to eat her cheerios. :)
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Frustration
Ok I know I have been posting a lot about Mack recently and have not posted anything regarding me in a while. Truthfully, I'm stressed and frustrated beyond belief as this semester is coming to a close. I have a week and a half left of class and then finals and have now entered "crunch time". I will be teaching my own lesson plan to a 3rd grade class a week from today and am stressed about whether all of the work I have put in, is going to pay off and will I actually teach them new information in an exciting way or if I will leave them bored and confused. I find myself stressing over whether I have chosen the right "career" for myself. If I am meant to be a teacher, would I be this worried about the outcome of one lesson? Are teachers naturally calm and feel in their element when preparing to teach or do they feel the anxiety I've been feeling?
In addition to the stress of the semester ending, I am dealing with the fact that though I have been in college 4 years already, and am a senior by credits, I will be school for 2 more years to come still finishing my bachelors degree. I see all of my friends who have graduated and gone on to pursue their careers already, and here I am still sitting in the classroom and doing homework. Will it ever end?? I'm getting to the point now when someone asks me what I do, I cringe as I respond "I'm a full-time college student", to which they typically reply "oh, getting your masters?" and I must reply, "no, my bachelors". I then wait for the awkwardness to pass as we stand there not really knowing what to say next. I typically end the conversation saying "It took me a couple years to figure out what I wanted to do with my life".
What I find interesting is that if I were a woman in my late 30's going back to college for the first time, people would look at me with admiration for deciding to pursue an education as an adult and overcoming so many obstacles. But since I am 23 and have been in school for 4 years, I should have graduated by now and look as though I don't apply myself, never-minding the fact that I am a wife and a mother who works 10-15 hours a week and is still able to maintain a 3.4 GPA (a 3.9 in my core education classes).
In addition to the stress of the semester ending, I am dealing with the fact that though I have been in college 4 years already, and am a senior by credits, I will be school for 2 more years to come still finishing my bachelors degree. I see all of my friends who have graduated and gone on to pursue their careers already, and here I am still sitting in the classroom and doing homework. Will it ever end?? I'm getting to the point now when someone asks me what I do, I cringe as I respond "I'm a full-time college student", to which they typically reply "oh, getting your masters?" and I must reply, "no, my bachelors". I then wait for the awkwardness to pass as we stand there not really knowing what to say next. I typically end the conversation saying "It took me a couple years to figure out what I wanted to do with my life".
What I find interesting is that if I were a woman in my late 30's going back to college for the first time, people would look at me with admiration for deciding to pursue an education as an adult and overcoming so many obstacles. But since I am 23 and have been in school for 4 years, I should have graduated by now and look as though I don't apply myself, never-minding the fact that I am a wife and a mother who works 10-15 hours a week and is still able to maintain a 3.4 GPA (a 3.9 in my core education classes).
Monday, April 14, 2008
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